A Day in the Park, Prologue, Second Draft

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I don't even remember if posted the first draft into this community or not. But this is the second draft of "A Day in the Park"

May 2006 is when i first laid eyes on you--do you remember that? I was fifteen at the time, a freshman in high school, a shy, curious thing. 1

We did not say much of anything the first meeting. Just a wave of the hand. I was too nervous and too shy to initiate the first move, so I waved. Just waved and went back to Christian and my sister.2

I remember getting back up again and getting on the vacant swing next to you and taking off, my headphones sliding down my ears. They stayed around my neck as I attempted to follow you wherever you were headed--if you were headed anywhere. Just as I was getting into the feeling of my flying, Christian said it was time to leave and I was disappointed.; I couldn't wait to see you again. As far as my memory tells me, that didn't happen in 2006.3

~4

2007--To be honest, I was overwhelmed when I saw you that second time. A cacophony of songs exploded in my mind--"Judgement"(as performed by Faith and the Muse), "Fallen Angel", "Life will never be the same again", and "5 Jahre", all by L'Âme Immortelle; "My Last Breath", "My Immortal" and "Missing" by Evanescence.5

I dropped what I was doing--pushing a girl on the swing, I think--and came over to you. I was dumbfounded; I didn't know what to say or how to act. I didn't know that you would captivate me so strongly--but that's a good thing.6

We talked for a little bit about stuff. I had asked you about things of the past--things i just barely remember now. I also remember that one of the girls I was with was trying to pull me away from you. I was stuck, I had to keep going. I wanted to keep talking to you. I almost felt like I had to as an obligation to myself. An obligation that I enjoyed doing. (Believe me, I'm not using you. I don't use people. Other people might, but I don't. That's a wrong, selfish thing to do.) I didn't talk to you the last time, I felt obligated to do so this time around. I didn't do what I did because I had to, I did because I wanted to. That's the difference.7

~8

2008 came along and I was somewhat able to focus on the task at hand. I was listening to "Angels" by Within Temptation. I was swinging, slowly fading into the world that was my music--rich sounds, richer than before. Christian asked me if I remembered you. I did, and still do.9

We did not talk that third time. I wish we had. I was afraid, I guess. I was afraid to leave my world and pull you out of yours. I shouldn't have been. 10

I think I know better now. I shouldn't be afraid. And I'm not. Not anymore.11

~12

2009--I hope for the best in 2009. I hope to see you again. I just want you to know that I never meant to scare you (if I did) at all.13

I had a dream recently, and I believe dreams will come true.